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| 04 jan 2007 @ 23:00 Tragedy, tragedie, tragedy | |||
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| Watched William Shakespeare's Romeo + Juliet (the post-modern one with Leonardo DiCaprio and Claire Danes). Then, couldn't bear any more tragedy, so I watched a movie that sounded really interesting, with Elizabeth Taylor and Mia Farrow: Secret Ceremony (1968).... little did I know what to expect.... So I switched the TV to VH1 Soul for something heartwarming... What should play but Ice Box (I got this ice box where my heart used to be) and then Runaway Love (....stuck up in this world, forced to think that hell is a place called home...) So I start to feel tender, and I want to call somebody,... and I realize I have brought myself to this place where there is nobody. I guess I am not dead, though. I can feel -- something. Maybe I am building up to rebuilding my life. Secret Ceremony, by the way, is extraordinarily good. The relationship between Elizabeth Taylor and Mia Farrow's characters is extraordinary, but wholly believable. The whole story is perfectly plausible, yet still striking in it's strangeness... the sort of plot that must really go on out there, but is not thought of or seen by most people. I won't say too much but that they are brought together by grief... and grief truly does bring about extraordinary experiences in life. | |||
| 08 nov 2006 @ 05:00 | |||
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| Wow, tired. Is anybody out there?? Reverse chronological order... Burning a copy of Cold Mountain (the movie) as we speak (so to speak :]). Watched Cold Mountain. It vass vally vally goott. (Check that off of last year's to-do list. wootwoo!). Watched news/election results. Ate. Went to video store (KIDS), Went to library (pile of photography tomes + fistful of videos-- Cold Mountain, Tomb Raider, Contempt [w/ Brigitte Bardot], 1 Giant Leap, Patch Adams [he was actually the doctor by my mother's bedside the day I was delivered {by a midwife}!], Little Fugitive + placed a hold on Barack Obama's new book The Audacity Of Hope: Thoughts on Reclaiming the American Dream with only 61 people ahead of me in cue... though it looked like there were a good dozen copies or so, so it might not take as many years as it would seem for me to get my chance). Called Mom from the civic center, pacing in the hall outside the library for 45 minutes discussing what's wrong with our political system and what we might do about it. Drank coke. Voted. Saw therapist. Showered. Ate cereal. Studied the election candidates and issues for a few hours. Woke at 11:30, surprise of surprises. Passed out on sofa at 5:30. Studied the election candidates and issues for quite a few hours. I'm here largely with a social interest right now, and it saddens me that no one seems interested in me anymore. That's actually why I'm not commenting on your journals as much lately -- none of my old contacts here have commented on my journal in many months, and I assume you aren't reading this now, anyway. But if you are it would at least be nice to know. Peace~~~ asa | |||
| 04 nov 2006 @ 07:00 misty | |||
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Humeur actuelle:
I just watched The Bodyguard (first time for some reason)...... Whitney Houston is such a beautiful woman...... wow. And I'm not talking just skin deep. And she's a damn good actress (her voice goes without saying). moroseI hate being depressed. I keep doing better in terms of stress, and I'm not suicidial, and I get out of bed,.... but I get out of bed and walk to the TV, turn it on, and watch it until the next dawn... eating the whole time... and then take pills for the pain, draw the blinds and go back to sleep. I have been planning to get out of the house for the past couple weeks. Last weekend and this I was going to make an excursion up to Sonoma county and visit family and friends. Doesn't look likely for this weekend either, seeing as I have no real intention to do it, and I'm about to go to bed this Saturday morning. I like the rain. It's been raining for a couple days I think. And now it's foggy foggy foggy all the time... cool yay. I watched several movies and TV shows before watching The Bodyguard. today, and The Bodyguard released me, so I could turn off the TV and go to bed. It cheered me eenough to care to do that.. and I'm greatful! It's actually kind of masochistic, both the TV and the, well everything. I guess depression and masochism go together. I feel tired. Nice. I slept through my therapy appt. yesterday. I guess that's it. I don't think anyone reads this anymore. | |||
| 26 oct 2006 @ 03:49 El otro lado de la cama | |||
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Humeur actuelle:
moviesI just watched a super sexy Spanish film called El otro lado de la cama (The other side of the bed) and it was wonderful!!! It's a musical, and well, that's why I watched it! Here comes a tangent! I saw some other musical in the past few days (my memory is really bad right now) and really enjoyed it :) I love music I love musicals I love movies. And from now on I'm gonna watch musicals only forever. cheerfulMusique actuelle: Listen to Your Heart - Roxette (in my head for hours) As the story got under way, my first grumpy thought was "this is sleazy." But I can be a bit too critical when I'm not happy... and I wasn't unhappy for long because El otro lado is a bubbly romantic comedy that sweeps you right in... totally charming. I want to record some of the numbers unless they're already on MySpace music, and post them up to include in my profile. I really love the spirit of the movie. Asa | |||
| 06 oct 2006 @ 20:28 | |||
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Humeur actuelle:
I had a wonderful day! peaceful I went to see the film Lapislazuli: Im Auge des Bären (Lapislazuli: In The Eye Of The Bear). It was beautiful. Really beautiful. It is a story about a thirteen year old girl's spiritual awakening through her acquaintanceship with a Neanderthal boy (revived from hibernation, buried under ice, by a cosmic event.) Although the circumstances may sound fantastical, the story is firmly real and relevant on a human level. It doesn't attempt to be complex, but is simple and solid. The setting is also stunning -- I think in the Alps. It should appeal to both children and adults. I highly recommend you try to see it. :)Today I also... went to see my therapist (albeit a bit late), had brunch and coffee out (polenta and veggies), wandered around a wonderful book store, browsing travel books and ancient maps (Book Passage, Corte Madera, CA), bought my brother Ben some top-notch playing cards and a set of poker chips for his recent 18th birthday, and stopped by the pharmacy where... ...I was browsing around when I noticed an almost inaudible mumbling sound. I looked up and saw a teenage girl. She kept murmuring, and I looked away and then back up again when she got slightly louder. She almost met my gaze that time, and I decided she was trying to talk to me. Finally, she held out her hand, which had some change in it, and whispered faintly, "I'm homeless," then cast her eyes back down. She had a large sore on her forehead, possibly a bruise, but I think it was more open -- possibly acne. I said "Oh!" as I finally understood what she wanted, and fetched around in my pockets. She whispered "Bless you" and I found a dollar bill, smiled, and gave it to her. I wanted to say something else, and different possibilities ran through my head, but finally, I said nothing -- just smiled again -- and walked away. A nagging regret itched at me as I walked around a little bit more, and then walked past her where she was standing in line at the front register, and out the door. Just as I stepped outside, I saw the full parking lot I had found when I arrived, and as many cars waiting to park as were already parked... immediately followed by the realization that what, if nothing else, I wanted to do for the girl was to give her a hug, or hug and kiss... immediately followed by the realization that a lot of people were sitting in their cars just waiting for me to leave -- and I had some of my usual nerves too... so, I kept walking, I unlocked my car, and knew I had passed the point of no return, got in and headed towards home. On the way I realized more and more that I had missed an opportunity to give the girl what I think she needed more than food, money, or shelter: a little love. And I kept driving. ♥ | |||
| 20 sep 2006 @ 18:11 Camera recommendations? | |||
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| I am going to ask my family for a digital camera for my birthday/Christmas. Can anyone give me some recommendations? I'm not sure what the budget is, so if I can pick out two or three cameras in different price brackets that would be great. At a minimum, the camera should take very high quality images and perform well in "difficult" lighting conditions. It should also allow me to control the exposure and focus manually when desired. Thanks! a. | |||
| 12 sep 2006 @ 00:56 art=love | |||
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| New art magazine = love =) .. Literally in print (see bottom of cover) and literally in me!!!! weee. | |||
| 10 sep 2006 @ 02:57 Memory2 | |||
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| Second in set. | |||
| 10 sep 2006 @ 02:57 Memory | |||
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| This is a self portrait by a friend of mine... she's so talented.... and has a better camera than me too :) | |||
| 10 sep 2006 @ 02:54 Hi! | |||
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| My kitty Tyler-peu wants to say "hi" to you. | |||
| 10 sep 2006 @ 02:52 Bake me a cake as fast as you can; | |||
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| 10 sep 2006 @ 02:49 Haircut! | |||
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| 09 sep 2006 @ 01:28 Freewrite | ||||||||
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| 09 sep 2006 @ 00:45 | |||
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Humeur actuelle:
I've been feeling it for a week or two. I need to have a spiritual breakthrough. The time is now. The time is soon. I do not know how I will do this yet. I may ask my hypnotherapist friend David to take me under for a spiritual journey, so I can reclaim my strength. That sounds easiest. I may dissapear and go on a quest. Oh, and speaking of questing.. I must find a way to go see my Grandma soon. She's not in the best of health with her cancer and her hip and stuff.. and she hit her ninety year mark back around March. I need to connect with my Dad too, and I need to spend some time with my sis Hannah.. groggy..Asa | |||
| 08 sep 2006 @ 23:40 | |||
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| Johnny Cash. Walk The Line. June Carter. Reese Witherspoon. Joaquin Phoenix. Mill Valley. Old Mill Park. I can't believe I had not gotten it together to go to any of the Movies In The Park yet this year... I'm really groggy tired I've been groggy ever since my brother woke me up by calling on the phone this afternoon. When you're in a stupor a lot, it's a shame cuz it alone cripples you.. if you can't think then you're lost.. Walk The Line was good. Actually, I was doing kind of better tonight after the movie I noticed, but then I took my meds including a new one,.. cuz this stupor thing is hitting me really hard right now... maybe that's it. I have been getting positive surprises this week: 1) My medicare premiums for the past two months were refunded to me ($177) without explanation... rumor has it the state of California decided to pick up that tab (I don't think it means they're covering my prescription drug plan or rx's though) 2) Yesterday, first day I used my new Rx insurance, and my insurance company didn't charge me my co-pay... Unfortunately, my pharmacy had only prepared two of my prescriptions, and I had to go back for the rest today..... and today I did have to pay a copay.... 3) Yesterday, my pharmacist (Ed) told me that he and Sol, his co-workess, wanted to take me out to lunch!!!!!!!! Someone in this world actually likes me, for some reason! I go to that pharmacy because of how wonderful they are there... and once Sol said something to me that really surprised me... was it....... that she had a dream about me while on vacation? maybe? If so, I'm pretty sure I didn't ask what the dream was about. And Ed is such a sweet and caring guy and he has relationships with all his customers... anyway, this feels so sweet.... 4) My brother Jack wanted to visit me ... & after a wake up call he came over ... I was in my stupor unfortunately and kinda feel like I was a downer/waste of time... we did go out for lunch/dinner together tho'.... that was fun. OH and while my mind is on the topic of hot girls (?) at Film Night there were like four really hot girls (at least they sounded hot in the dark!) laying on their blankets next to me and they were all talking in Dutch to each other!! Yummy!! YESTERDAY I watched Now & Forever starring Adam Beach and Mia Kirshner. I had a LOT to say about it.. it definitely brought some stuff up for me... and I wrote it all down for you last night.. unfortunately, that's when cyberspace ate my homework :(... and I don't have the strength to say it again now. Oh well. - Me p.s. I'm in a lot of pain... | |||
| 08 sep 2006 @ 02:01 | |||
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| the help says to just go to the update page and it will prompt to retrieve it. no. | |||
| 08 sep 2006 @ 01:59 Without a heart you are dead. | |||
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| AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA I just typed for like 20 minutes my heart out and then hit the wrong thing and it's gone. fuck. What's this "autosaved draft" thing? Where's my draft? | |||
| 07 sep 2006 @ 03:47 British girls | |||
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| ...are hot! I have a domain registered with Easyspace (Glasgow, Scotland) and they sent me an errant notice the other day... I decided to take the opportunity to call them by phone... and luck I got to chat with a Hot Scot =) Something about the accent, grrrr..... I admit I get wound up by a few different accents, but, grrr :) Other news. Tired, must be good boy and sleep. Helped Mom and Ben move to Santa Rosa all last week, stressful. Tired. MUST take care of issues with the housing authority, MediCal, soc. security asap. Must pick up rx's today. Pay next bills, budget spreadsheet, schedule bills as automatic payments. Housing Authority: Why did they increase my rent? why are they using 2003/2004 total rent??? They need to acknowledge/use my latest rent$ that starts oct.1st. Must file for medical expenses. MediCal/Ashley Rose: What medical expenses can I deduct besides extra insurance? Make appt. for food stamps. Social Security: Looks like my Part B premiums were retracted...Assuming I was approved for fee waiver, how does this impact my Part D? What amt. will my check be next month? | |||
| 03 sep 2006 @ 23:40 Love songs to my self. | |||
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Musique actuelle: Sinéad O'Connor - Jealous
Sinéad is a true artist.. she always brings her heart to her work. Always personal, she puts her self up on the canvas for the world, beautiful and brave.I am in love with this song... It seems to me that this song shows her tenderest skin. Still wounded, still angry, but she shows it from the pure girl inside, and the mood is that dreamlike state after you've drowned in you're heart's emotional blood, and you are breathing through gills. When you're so tired from crying you have nothing to hide. You don't need your loud defenses, because you don't care anymore. You let it wash through you and flood the world... you sit, and you are. This is on her 2000 come-back album Faith And Courage, which I must now purchase :). A reviewer says "the songs on Faith And Courage can be seen as O’Connor’s love songs to herself"... and yes, I hear that.. and that makes me happy for my most beautiful friend Sinéad. Actually I have quite a bit of catch up to do with several albums recorded since :)... | |||
